I remember feeling like an outsider, embarrassed that I still wet my bed and had to wear diapers, when I started middle school. I was 12 then, I didn't know anyone my age who wet their beds or wore diapers. I'd hear kids make jokes about other kids who had an accident, or wet their pants and I felt sort of vulnerable, afraid about what they would say if they knew I wet my bed. I think it contributed a lot to how shy I was around girls, and that only worsened as I got older, entered high school, and still wet my bed and wore diapers. I felt much safer home where my family knew and were sympathetic and supportive. There a few boys who I grew up with who knew and were OK, but basically I tended to be a loner, didn't sleep over anywhere once I became so sensitive about my bedwetting. I think for me, the biggest fear was dating, afraid girls would find out about me, or already know and reject me, and feel embarrassed or more likely humiliated. Being so afraid for so long became a self-fulfilling prophecy. I never dated girls, never went out to parties, instead stayed home in the comfort of my family where I felt safe, could wear diapers around them, wet my bed and everything was nice. By the time I finally stopped my bedwetting, I had become attracted to wearing diapers, to wetting myself, even to using diapers as an outlet for my burgeoning sexual urges. This fear of being discovered, of embarrassment and humiliation really restricted my social life for many years. For example I was in my mid 20's the first time I asked a girl out.
i just saw it as normal.
(I wet untill 13) and then had one strange day when I was 15 and woke up soaked I was so afraid of my parents finding out so I stashed my clothes in an abandoned locker at school