Hi, I'm new here and this is my very first post to any ABDL site..... I am 41, married and have Cerebral Palsy, which requiems to use a power wheelchair full time. I guess I'm not sure how to say what I'm trying to say. I have come to the point where I am totally ok with the child inside of me, but I don't feel like I fit in, either in my marriage or even in the parts of the ABDL community that I've seen so far. I am a computer programmer with 2 college degrees, employed full time for over 15 years....for someone with a disability I should feel great about my life, but no one seems to truly understand the AB side of me. I am fully dependent on my wife for all of my personal care needs including dressing, bathing etc, and yet, she wants nothing to do with my AB side, which does lean heavily towards the sexual end of the spectrum. So that said, there are several reasons I don't feel like I really fit anywhere.
1. It feels like every AB form, reddit, or web site I come across is little more than people showing of their diapers and or talking about pee and poop. I'm not judging them, if it works for them great, but it's not me. I don't really want to see your diaper, or know how much you filled it with. For me, AB is a very private emotionally based thing, almost intellectual in some ways, for me it's all about the adult-"child" emotional interaction. The same goes for playing with toys or watching kids TV shows....really not my thing.
That brings me to the second reason I feel sort of left out. I see lots of people in this community saying "my wife loves and supports this part of me, but she doesn't participate". Again, not judging others, but am I just a jerk because this seems so wrong to me? For me, my AB side is the deepest part of my emotional/sexual self, so how can I just say that it's ok that my wife wants nothing to do with this? Obviously I can't force her, and I don't want to, but every time I see a post like that it just makes me feel even more alone and isolated. I just wonder, are there others like me out there, or am I just not really typical even for this community?
1. It feels like every AB form, reddit, or web site I come across is little more than people showing of their diapers and or talking about pee and poop. I'm not judging them, if it works for them great, but it's not me. I don't really want to see your diaper, or know how much you filled it with. For me, AB is a very private emotionally based thing, almost intellectual in some ways, for me it's all about the adult-"child" emotional interaction. The same goes for playing with toys or watching kids TV shows....really not my thing.
That brings me to the second reason I feel sort of left out. I see lots of people in this community saying "my wife loves and supports this part of me, but she doesn't participate". Again, not judging others, but am I just a jerk because this seems so wrong to me? For me, my AB side is the deepest part of my emotional/sexual self, so how can I just say that it's ok that my wife wants nothing to do with this? Obviously I can't force her, and I don't want to, but every time I see a post like that it just makes me feel even more alone and isolated. I just wonder, are there others like me out there, or am I just not really typical even for this community?
