LittleTyke said:
If you feel comfortable about telling us, I would very much like to know how things turned out when you told your partner. Maybe some of us could learn from your experiences. Or maybe I'm just curious...
Sure, I'm happy to share. Like I said in my post, there was a sudden change in my ABDL acceptance within a few weeks of switching from zoloft to prozac. What's super weird to me and I still don't fully understand is why that happened with prozac and not zoloft, when zoloft was also effective for my depression. That's probably a topic for another thread, though.
Looking back over messages here it looks like I told my wife a couple years after that, not a couple months like I originally stated. So it took a fair amount of time for me to do that. Looking back, I should have done it sooner.
If I recall, she had brought up adult diapers in some topic - I forget exactly what. I thought she knew and that was a hint that she knew. I had been planning to tell her anyway, so eventually I just did. I said I had a strange interest kind of related to sex, and that it was wearing diapers - ABDL, or at least the DL part was partially a sexual interest for me (interestingly it's less so now, but I almost want to wear them more now). Previously we had talked about non-vanilla sex, and she was fine with that and even into a few things herself, so intellectually I knew it would probably be fine, but that's different than knowing it will be fine.
She did ask why it took me so long to tell her, which is a fair question. I was honest, said there was still some shame involved with it, and that I needed a little time to sort out the feelings myself after decades of trying to suppress them. She understood that. She also asked why I was into diapers. I was honest and said I had no idea, but there were a few things I remembered from my childhood about diapers, but that maybe I remembered them because I was already interested in diapers, so who knows?
After that we went to the store that day and I bought diapers. I think seeing how nervous I was doing that helped her realize how difficult it was for me.
One thing I thought about before telling her, and that is a useful exercise, is to think about what would happen if the roles were reversed? Suppose you are into diapers, and have a partner who doesn't know that. How would you react if your partner said they were into (looking at wikipedia here for some random suggestions) spanking, or rope bondage, or being handcuffed, or a specific form of role play, etc? It's important for this that you don't have super strong feelings about it, either positive or negative. I'd be willing to try most things, subject to a few limits (e.g. exhibitionism or doing things in public is a turn off for me, so probably not interested in that). That might help inform how such a conversation with your partner might go.
This got longer than I meant, so I'll stop. I'm happy to explain more, either in this thread or via PM if anyone wants to message me.