Diapered Elderly Caitian in 2024...

[caitianx]

4/2/2024 - 19:23 -
Sigh...
Mute.
Quiet.
And experiencing an emotional crash.
Needing solitude.
Needing my plushies.
I am either calm.
Or I am very sad.
Normal for me for the past 60 years.

 

[caitianx]

4/3/2024 - 9:30 -
Yes.
I am awake.
I am cleaned up and dressed, including diapered, and sitting in my wheelchair.
I also just took my daily diuretic medication
Again I feel quite sad.
Being Autistic, it is the outside world, and interacting in it.
I am and always will be a social screw-up.
I just withdraw inwards and stay alone.
I am experiencing hyper-intense PTSD flashbacks of mistakes I made in childhood and my mentally deranged Mom hyper-violently "beating the Hell out of me" to within an inch of my life "many times over" for them.
Nobody else around to "stop it".
Most of my life I have been like a Rabbit.
Constantly looking over my shoulder 24/7.
Even during sleep.
Ready to waken an "flee".
Anyway, I will download some scientific data.

 

[caitianx]

4/3/2024 - 11:40 -
I have had today's Meals on Wheels Lunch for the Elderly.
I have been in my wheelchair all morning long.
No television this morning.
That will be for later today.
I did go out into my Living Room an quietly played with LEGO.
I just did something I have always done.
Quietly play with a toy.
I will note that my 82 year-old roommate, CK, is taking a nap.
Soon it will be time for me to take my own nap.
My hands restraind and encased in my medical restraint mittens.
Thumbless...
Padded...
Each and every single day at nap time I am in them for 4:00 hours straight.
Yes.
I am still feeling sad.
I am "hiding myself away".
Mute...
Silent...

 

[caitianx]

4/3/2024 - 17:25 -
I am okay.
I am out of the medical restraint mittens until 22:00.
I am back in my wheelchair.
Outside it is overcast and raining.
The weather forecast is for it to change over to snow.
In real life, my paternal Grandfather from West Point, Prince Edward Island in Canada was an "Immigrant".
Today a person on the television called "poor" immigrants like my Grandfather "Animals" and not "Human Beings".
My Paternal Grandfather was not an "Animal".
I am offended by what this person said on the television.
Anyway, earlier at 17:00 I got up from my nap.
I changed into a clean diaper.

 

[caitianx]

4/3/2024 - 18:45 -
It is a given, that the images on television news proves that the outside world is an evil shithole.
I am needing my plushie THADDEUS TRICERATOPS.
I had to "turn it off".
It is now time to watch "Educational Television Documentaries".
Earlier I did have Supper with my roommate, CK.
Otherwise, I have been alone all day long by myself.

 

[caitianx]

4/3/2024 - 19:15 -
I seem to be alone as an Elderly Autistic in my interests.
World War II History...
Rise of Nazism...
Astronomy...
I know of no others with these intersts.
Yes.
I hate the Nazis.
They are back out in the open everywhere here in my country.

 

[caitianx]

4/3/2024 - 20:10 -
I was just out in my kitchen to take my daily evening medications.
Now online I am watching:
PBS NOVA
The subject is the upcoming Total Solar Eclipse on Monday next week.

 

[KBoy]

We have a Holocaust museum in St Petersburg... very sad, yet life affirming

 

[caitianx]

4/4/2024 - 17:20 -
I am okay.
The electrical power was out from ~ 7:30 to ~ 13:15 earlier today due to the snowstorm.
Earlier I was outside to shovel the snow.
I then had my nap.
Now I am up from my nap and soon it will be time for Supper.

 

[caitianx]

4/4/2024 - 18:00 -
Here in Derry, New Hampshire at ~ 11:45, there was a big explosion at a house on GOODHUE ROAD here in Derry a couple miles south of where I live.
A couple trees snapped and fell onto the house's propane gas tanks.
One Hell of a fireball.
One woman burned to death.
One child home from school gravely burned.
The entire fire department was there to put the fire out.

 

[caitianx]

4/4/2024 - 19:45 -
I am just quietly watching a World War II History Documentary.
I also performed the house chore of emptying my medical adult potty chair tray and cleaning it.
Yes.
I really mega over-did-it today physically shovelling snow.
I am hurting with respect to the spasticity in my legs due to Cerebral Palsy.
I am in my wheelchair.

 

[caitianx]

4/4/2024 - 20:40 -
I am now watching a Science Documentary about Earth Science.
Earlier I did take my daily evening medications.

 

[caitianx]

4/5/2024 - 9:30 -
I am diapered and dressed.
My morning diuretic medication has been taken.
My roommate, CK, is out shopping.
I am mute and quiet.
Sigh...
It is "Spring".
But, there is "more snow" on the ground.
It is like Winter "refuses to end".
As always I am in my wheelchair, unless I need to go outside.

 

[caitianx]

4/5/2024 - 10:35 -
I am avoiding the news of the outside world.
On DVD I have watched:
SMALLVILLE
Now I am watching:
XENA: WARRIOR PRINCESS
I am waiting for the "Lunch Lady" to arrive with today's Meals on Wheels Lunch for the Elderly.
Sigh...
I know, I should be watching Cartoons.
But that is for tomorrow on Saturday.

 

[caitianx]

4/5/2024 - 11:30 -
Always...
Daily...
The transferring from wheelchair to toilet to change dirty diapers.
I am a "dirty" disabled old man.

 

[caitianx]

4/5/2024 - 17:52 -
Yes.
I have had Supper.
Regular food.
Not Baby food.
Earlier I had my nap.
4:00 hours in medical restraint mittens.
I did go outside to take out trash and to retrieve the mail.
Before I had Supper I watched on DVD:
BATMAN
1960's live-action series.
I have checked my schedule.
I have another teleconference at 19:00.

 

[caitianx]

4/5/2024 - 20:24 -
Now...
Finally...
It is time for "Educational" Television Documentaries.
First...
World War II.
NAZI HUNTERS - KLAUS BARBIE
Anyway, I am trying to wind-down for the evening.
Do not worry.
Tomorrow on Saturday will be "Cartoon Watching Time".

 

[caitianx]

4/6/2024 - 8:50 -
I am awake.
I am diapered.
I am dressed.
I took my first medication.
All through the night last night my hands were restrained in medical restraint mittens.
Being Autistic I spend a great deal of time daily in medical restraint mittens.
Yes.
It is Saturday.
It is now time for watching cartoons.

 

[caitianx]

4/6/2024 - 11:06 -
THE FLINTSTONES
BUNNICULA
MIGHTY MORPHIN POWER RANGERS
THE NEW ADVENTURES OF SUPERMAN
What should be on Saturday Morning Network Television instead of "Talk Shows" for "adults".
I did make myself Lunch.
Plus I took my 2nd medication of the day.
At 12:30 later it will be time for my nap.
Now it is time to watch more cartoons online.

 

[caitianx]

4/6/2024 - 19:58 -
I have watched 4 episodes of STAR TREK.
STAR TREK: THE ORIGINAL SERIES
STAR TREK: THE NEXT GENERATION
STAR TREK: PICARD
Now it is time to watch Science Documentaries.
Yes.
Earlier I had Supper.
An apology...
I am trying not to experience an emotional crash.
With me being Autistic, these emotional crashes just happen.